It ends, right?
High school, I mean.
I'm so tired.
I'm tired of constantly being stressed out, sleep-deprived, depressed and pissed off.
I'm tired of watching our educational system go further and further down the toilet. I'm tired of hearing teachers complain about the direction our school is taking and then refuse to stand up to the administration and say, "No, stop it, YOU'RE DUMBASSES. Stop trying to control things you don't understand!" Grow a damn backbone. And administrators, grow a damn brain.
I'm tired of standardized tests, teachers wasting their time with students who don't want to learn, being ignored, being labeled "Talented and Gifted" and ignored.
I'm tired of having ten million things to do and not an ounce of motivation to get any of it done.
I'm tired of hearing policy this, policy that, not having a voice, and watching people who have more control over my life than
I do sit in their offices and refuse to think- in a
school.I'm tired of crying myself to sleep every time I have a stupid breakdown. I'm in a cycle. Something sets me off, I get really depressed, then I get pissed off, then I try to take action, then I get silenced, then I'm so tired and so defeated that I just forget about it entirely for a while, and then I'm okay, and then something sets me off and the cycle starts again.
I am so, so tired.
Next year, I'm going to try to graduate early.
I'm giving up on the idea of taking Journalism. I'm not going to run for Japanese Club president again. I'm not going to the senior prom. I don't give a flying rat's ass about walking at graduation- I'm gonna play Pomp and Circumstance at home on the computer, and throw darts at a picture of the principal or something. I don't plan on staying any longer than I have to. The first semester, that's it, and then I'm getting the fuck out of there.
I just don't
care anymore. (Just like the school administration- what a coincidence!) I have one elective credit and half a PE credit to finish next year. In the grand scheme of things, that's... nothing.
In the grand scheme of things, high school really doesn't matter at all, or so I'm told.
Why does it have to be such an ordeal?
Why does it seem like nobody (except some of the teachers) really cares about the kids?
Oh, that's right- because nobody does. Money is more important, right? And war. War is really important too.
Nevermind that someday, when they're old farts, we'll be running the world. We are the future grocery baggers and lawyers, gas station workers and doctors, taxi drivers, government officials, insurance agents, farmers and waiters and waitresses and police officers and firefighters and nuclear physicists and the list could go on forever.
Why are we disposable?
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Humans seem addicted to success...and these days, success is defined not by happiness, but by money (even more than the older days).
So, bravo to you for continuing when you have no strength or will to continue. For striving to learn when no one else will.
For having the courage to stand your ground.
We aren't going against the grain, I've realized.
...the grain is going against us.
Hang in there, young lady.
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~PolicyRapistNoMore
as negative as this may sound, its really me encouraging you to find what you really want to do and find the right way to get there, even if that means following some bs educational ranking system. depending on your career choice your education may take up to a quarter of your life, but if you do it right and abide by their ways (as stupid as they may be) you can spend the rest of your life doing what you love.
as a tip, if you plan on entering a career path such as design or illustration, its not your credentials that matter but rather your skills, this is the part where education really is for learning instead of gaining credits, so if you can gain those skills without school or university there is really no point whatsoever in being there
you dont have to think any of this is correct but this is how it has been for me and this is how i see it
either way i hope you find what is right for you
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I don't know what I want to do, really. I've always played with the idea of doing something in design/illustration, but I don't know if I have the discipline to turn a hobby into something that brings home the bacon.
I'm taking accounting and some computer science next year, and hopefully, I can do something with that...
All I really know is that I want to escape this collapsing school district before I get crushed in the rubble.
Thanks
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I'm sorry, there's not much advice I can give. I've only recently started high school and I have no idea how tough high school can really be.
But I really hope things work out for you.
I hope you're in a better school district than I am, at least. I'm in the worst one in my state.
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Well, I guess I'm in a pretty good school district. We have different class levels, honors and regents, so at least everyone is separated into appropriate class levels. (Though there are those immature kids who never shut up about stupid jokes in class and they manage to get into honors. >.>U)
But I bet most schools do that, don't they?
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I guess my science teacher is doing something good, then... in terms of making class challenging, I think.
He's going to give us a final exam and then we gotta take the regents, but he's giving us, like, one day of review. I mean, he's not dumbing things down, so that's sort of a good thing? Science this year is challenging. In that class, it's very hard to get a grade that honors students are used to getting in school. But the constant whining from the students is causing the teacher to push back due dates for labs and homework.
But for every other class, I think it's dumbed-down.
I do have lazy teachers. Which makes the class more challenging, and makes me work harder. Lazy teachers = challenging class. XD
But now that I think about it, my math honors class is really being taken seriously. (by my teacher, at least) Whenever the teacher does a math problem with us in class, and someone complains about it being too hard, the teacher will tell them 'It's going to get a lot harder next year for math honors, so if you think this is hard, then you don't belong in honors.' So, I guess not all of my classes are being dumbed-down.
Oh, and sorry if I'm talking about useless things. I still kind of haven't gotten this whole concept of NCLB yet. D: So if I'm talking like I have no idea what I'm talking about, then tell me, please. >.<
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